Finishing the thought

In my last post I talked about fear being a farce. I don’t know of anyone that completely escapes fear. Sometimes we live an entire lifetime fearing some things. I doubt I will overcome all fear in my life. My last post was written out of a conversation with myself about fear. Sounds like I can have some tough conversations with myself doesn’t it? Well, I do. Sometimes I have to have a tough love conversation with myself to overcome a challenge or difficulty.  Sometimes my passion or intense desire to seek resolution or peace can be a bit strong. It’s that strength and desire to not suffer is what drives me to be so forward.  I have friends and loved ones that have to take prescription drugs and it improves their quality of life. I find that I’m most at peace when I pray and meditate about a fear or challenge but the reality is that I’m human and take it upon myself instead of turning the problem over to God. There have been times in my life when I’ve had to seek medical help for anxiety.

Prescription drugs for a serotonin imbalance are not a farce. Sometimes we need these things to help us. The point I was trying to make was based on stories that I hear and have read about people relying solely on the drug. Relying only on the drug and then doing nothing else about it but still complaining is where I see people suffering. I feel as though if we are to overcome challenges we have to have to choose to do the right thing for ourselves. It just seems that our society is often complaining about problems, getting a pill to help and doing nothing beyond that. No counseling, no change in diet, nothing to help ourselves. We’re not perfect. There was only one person that walked this Earth that was perfect and that person got angry, that person had fear, that person also fully relied upon God and still experienced things that we still experience over 2,000 years later. It was Jesus Christ…the savior of the world.  So when you suffer please remember that you are not alone. You have friend and family that love you, a God that wants you to be happy and have inner peace. That happiness and inner peace is attainable through a very close walk with God. That’s something I strive for and so very often fall short of but I know he forgives me and loves me and someday I will join him in Heaven. So please don’t suffer, get medicine if you need it. Talk to a counselor, rely on family, rely on friends and fight for your happiness. Fight for a better life….look in the mirror and tell yourself you deserve to be happy and you’re going to do something about it. If I can ever be help to you please let me know as I want you to be happy.

With Love,

Chip

Farce!

Fear is a farce. Everyday I’m faced with the biggest fear known to man, mortality. If you would have asked me a year ago if there would ever be a time when I would wake up and not be in fear of losing the battle with cancer I would have said, “I don’t know or probably not.” Wanting to live and fighting to live are separate from fearing for your life. I’ve been fighting this thing for some time and many times it has been a fight in fear. So why is fear a farce? It’s a farce because it keeps us from living. If you are in fear you are not living! Fear is weakness, fear is giving up on a good life, fear is refusing to accept the blessings you have in life, fear is taught to us because the world says we have to be something we’re not, the world says we’re not good enough but if you buy this car you will be. Horse poo! If you are in fear over small things then you are stressing your heart and mind for nothing. Fear over small things is out of balance with the universe. If you think fear over these things then you are welcoming and inviting negative energy into to your life. I watch and observe as people post their fears on Facebook, MySpace, Twitter, Blogs etc. and wonder how much of life they are missing because they are living in the farce. Don’t get me wrong…if you have a legitimate reason to have fear then it’s natural to be in fear. I’m talking about the whiners who think life is unfair or tough cause they’re not getting they’re way. What really shocks me is that so many people with illegitimate fears have turned to modern medicine for a pill to cure their fear. Imagine how broke the pharmaceutical companies would be if all those people said, “I’m going to grow up, be an adult and face my fears!” Can you even imagine what a spiritual awakening that would be in America? So why don’t I live in fear? Cause Jesus Christ is my savior and I am going to Heaven. What else is there? If you do not live of this world then you do not live for possessions and the things by which MAN says we live for. I know I come across strong but I’m passionate about living and I get tired of hearing people complain about how much better life would be if ________________. Quit complaining and start living! Sheesh….if I can live with cancer can’t you live with snow, ice, cold, disobedient children, selfish partners, difficult bosses, angry customers, small paychecks and small problems? Stop being so selfish and give to others, seek to be a blessing to others and God will bless you. I want to say “I’m sorry” for ranting but I’m not perfect and I get impatient and expect more out of life and more out of people than…I’m scared, I can’t, I don’t want to accept responsibility for my actions, I don’t want to show love to people, I’m sad. Get over it!

With Love,

Chip

an end

I’ve been so far in so many ways since my last post. I’ve driven over 2,000 miles and have been at the far reaches of the lost and found of life. Work has been consuming most of my time and energy. Well, that and Facebook which seems to be the only vice I can have anymore. Thankfully I have a little bit of time to relax and be more at  peace this week, kinda.

I’m changing the subject but my mind is on things that I want to understand but they’re not meant to be understood. A personality trait of mine, if you didn’t already know, is that I can be very analytical….about many things. Many wouldn’t guess that because of the amount of time I spend hiking and just being in peaceful places.  Well, because I spend so much time scanning and analyzing I need time in the forest to detach. I don’t know what the point is….I guess I just feel obligated to post since I’ve been neglecting it. Often I think of topics I want to write about during the day but by the time I’m in a place  I can write the day is over and I’m closer to sleep then sharing anything of value through the blog. So how about this….DNA tests came back today and I’m still showing cancer free. I guess that’s all I can really say of value. That and God Bless James and Patti, Noah, Brad and Heidi, Beverly, Ted and all the others that made my trips to NC and SC even more enjoyable. Thank you!!