Forgotten Anniversary

Kate and I went to The Clay Center this evening to attend the final dress rehearsal of the Nutcracker.  I had never seen a dress rehearsal before and found it to be very interesting.  Listening to the conductor lead, pause, direct and coach the orchestra and the dancers was a perspective I’ve never been opened to before.   I began to wonder how many people take the time to observe and reflect upon what is happening in the world around them. 

A friend shared an observation of myself that really stuck with me.  It’s not often we do this openly and sincerely!   Anyway, he said that he could observe how my thoughts and actions seemed to always be three to five steps ahead of the present.  Do you observe people with deliberation?  I’ve always enjoyed it.  I think it’s kind of funny how many people are so unaware of their own actions and thoughts and what kind of life it produces for them.  It’s not always the easiest thing to do but some times we have to deliver our personalities with deliberation.  Whether it’s an upset stomach, a personal problem, stress or just because of weariness we have to force out our personalities.  Call it overcoming adversity.  Call it acting.  The reality to me is that in order to enjoy ourselves sometimes we have to trick ourselves.  Tell yourself that enough when you need to and you may see just what you want…..

 Oh, I almost forgot the reason for the title.  Today is the five month anniversary of the diagnosis and I didn’t realize it until I was catching up with a friend at the dress rehearsal.  See why don’t go out much anymore?

Lots of Love,

Chip

Absentee Landlord

I envision reporting that all has been well.  As I look at how long it has been since I last blogged it occurs to me that the last month has been nothing less than difficult which is the primary reason I didn’t blog.  I was using all my strength and energy to take care of immediate concerns.  Turns out that blogging actually helps dissipate concerns.  Don’t get me wrong.  Things have been well but I haven’t been feeling well.  Indications are that my gall bladder is on the blink but I don’t know for sure yet.  An ultrasound and a HIDA test this morning may at least let us know with more certainty.  I know you can always look around and see someone else that has it worse.  There’s not much comfort in that when intestinal cramps have you wincing in pain for hours on end.  It has improved with some dietary changes but my gall bladder hints that there may be more.  Hopefully a dietary change will take care of it.  Anyway, I just wanted to reach out in the digital domain and declare that I am going to do everything in my power to get medically and mentally fit and stay that way.  Thanks for visiting and keeping in touch.

Chip